It’s been a minute since my last outpour of emotions, if you
are reading this it means I have finally stopped overthinking and published
these ramblings that have gone on in my head for too long. April began to feel
like a sting and one hell of a month, I’ll share in chapters.
Chapter 1
The Great Friendship Vanishing
Picture this: two peas in a pod, partners in crime, the
dynamic duo that could conquer the world. We laughed, we cried, and we shared
secrets that were supposed to be taken to the grave. But, alas, friendships
sometimes have an expiration date, and ours seemed to come with an unexpected
twist. One day, without warning, our
connection fizzled out like a deflated balloon. A grand argument, a very dramatic
exit—and a slow fade into the abyss of lost camaraderie. It left me puzzled,
wondering if I had accidentally enrolled in an advanced course on the art of
losing friends. But hey, life has its mysteries, and I became the unwilling
protagonist in this tragicomedy of friendship gone astray. I loved Favour and I
still find it funny how we are not friends anymore, funnier when I think about
why. It was a daunting experience, I said things I wish I didn’t and heard her
say things I never imagined I’d hear her say. If a friendship could break over
something so minute, what even was the point?
Chapter 2
Party of One
A
brave new world of solo adventures, dining alone became a gourmet experience,
and talking to myself became more riveting.
Living alone suddenly became an opportunity to explore my own company
and rediscover my independence. Sure, I became the master of watching entire TV
series in a single weekend and perfected the art of procrastination, but in
that solitude, I found a new sense of freedom. I now enjoy quiet days and most
importantly, quiet mornings.
Chapter 3
Passion Quest
Ah, passion, that elusive creature that everyone seems to be
chasing like a mirage in the desert. I delved into the sea of possibilities and
stumbled upon hobbies, interests, and experiences that ignited a spark within
me. From animation and scriptwriting classes to attempting yoga poses that seemed
to defy the laws of physics, I embraced it all with fervor. Of course, there have been moments of
confusion and hilarious mishaps along the way. Through laughter and occasional
embarrassment, I unearthed hidden talents and discovered a zest for life that
had been dormant.
I know, this dump feels like hints here and there but that’s what I could make of everything going on.
What's been going on with you?
The first one is something I can relate to. Everything crashed in May over a teeny tiny misunderstanding that could have been avoided/solved. Known her since 2019 , heaven was a place on earth with her .
I think i still dream of a world where we never had to disagree on that tiny stuff. But maybe dreams are just dreams. Jennifer made my world a better place. Sucks that I’m actually writing about it.(with tearsss in my eyes)
I hope you heal from your breakup soon .
I’m sorry.💗
Enjoying your own company is a level not everyone gets unlock. Lucky you!!!
Lucky me.
The second chapter is something I have experienced but still crave and strive to get. A space of my own and quiet mornings. Solo dates and all of it.
I pray you get all of that and more, 🥺💗.